To my sweet friends,
Thank you for never leaving my side. Thank you for being the two that will never let me break. You’ve been there to catch me when I fall (literally 😉 ) and always celebrating the smallest of wins with me. Ashley, you’ve been right next to me since the very beginning. That’s actually quite literal as I was sitting next to you the first time I passed out. You spent so much time sophomore year dropping everything to help. The first time I was ever hospitalized you were sure to bring me anything I needed, including your company. Kelsey, you came to sit with me every night that trip for hours. Neither of those things have changed. I quickly learned how deeply everything was hurting both of you. Through the seizures, unknown and loss of “old Hadley” I could see the same pain in your eyes that mine reflected. Just as quickly I learned never to take either one of you for granted.
There have been so many canceled plans and important things to you I should’ve been at but couldn’t make it, not a single time have you ever gotten upset or made me feel any more guilty. Instead, you’ve learned the details of Hemiplegic Migraine and can recognize when I’ve reached my limit, often having to snap me out of being so stubborn. Without complaint you’ve had so many lunch dates or hours of waiting in the hospital with me. I can’t tell you how much I hate feeling like our friendship is often one sided as I haven’t been there for you way too many times.
Kels, you took time out of your always hectic schedule just to fly with me to Minnesota for my Mayo Clinic visit, in the middle of January. You ate Dairy Queen for dinner with me after a rough first day, because obviously ice cream is the best medicine. One of the only things I can remember when I was in ICU this spring, was waking up to see you there holding my hand. Even though I knew you were in the middle of finals week and couldn’t stay in town for much longer than 12 hours. But you were right there. How many people get that much support from one person? It cannot be many. After moving back home for the summer you spent the next 22 days in the hospital with me. You never missed a single day. I would sleep for hours and you’d still be there when I woke up. I’m not sure what we spent more hours doing, playing Uno or trying to untangle wires and stop beeping? You stayed up with everything each doctor said, being my voice when I couldn’t be my own. If our roles are ever flipped, know that I’ll sit in your hospital bed letting you actually cry on my shoulder, and I’ll be right there to hold your hand before or after any procedure. You will always be the Christina to my Meridith.
Ash, you may not have gotten to travel with me, but I know you’ve been willing and wanting to every time. The countless hours we’ve spent FaceTiming mean just as much. You make sure to always keep me laughing, which is an equally important medicine as ice cream. 🙂 This is why our ice cream dates are always necessary and successful. I’m so so glad you’ll talk to people like Bonnie for me and play along when saying “yes, I was in an accident”, is just much easier to explain.Thank you for not just the hours spent in the regular hospital, including coming late when you get off work, but also for the long nights we’ve gotten stuck in the ER. I’m pretty sure you know just as much about HM as I do, making me confident you would make sure I was correctly taken care of in any circumstance. You have the biggest heart and are constantly giving to me in any way I ever need. There is never a dull moment, no matter how awful I feel I end up laughing so hard every time. I absolutely love you and can only imagine the things we’ll continue to get ourselves into forever.
To the both of you, I wish thank you held so much more significance than it does. Thank you for never leaving me lonely or broken down. Most of all, thank you for always being able to hold onto apart of, again, my “old” self after I lost that. I pray that everyone have at least one friend as great as you. I think that’s important. Though I don’t want either of you sick or down, I do hope that someday I can repay you and be just as good of a friend back. I love you both so so much!